UGH!

So, I am jobless right now, however, it is not because there is nothing to do out there.  I applied for several jobs, one of them offered me a position and I refused it.  Why? I don't know.  I have been unemployed for almost two months and I really need the money, but, I don't want to be tied down at a company that I know I wont succeed in.  I am hoping for other offers, however, those might be a bit out of my reach.

I just needed to vent.  Since, every time I turn to a friend, they have said I should have taken the job offer.

Ugh.

Soy un Arbol?

I sit here wasting away doing nothing, I still can not motivate myself to do something. I look around and see others aspiring to be someone and I still sit here just looking into a screen that will give no answers. I look and look as if to see that maybe it will be able to show me where I need to be. I feel lost as if I will never find my way. I feel as if I have no freedom, as if I am tree that has been planted and its roots have taken hold of the earth and don’t want to let go even if its leaves shake with desire of freedom. Those few instances of hope, when the wind comes and blows and blows, freedom seem so close, but nothing. The leaves look up into the sky wishing they could go with it, not knowing that there will be a day when they are free, and hoping they were still attached to the tree.

Will the same thing happen to me?

*Photo taken from this site.

Amor Latino?

¿Si hay algo lo que se llama amor latino?
¿Han escuchado la canción de Carlos Vives que se llama “Amor Latino”?

Hay maneras de amar diferentes, te quiero contar
que en mi pueblo se quiere mi gente, que no tiene igual,
y en mi pueblo latino se siente, en mi pueblo latino se crece,
una forma de amar diferente, que hoy hiere cantar.

Siempre se habla de un amor o una manera que la gente hispana/latina tiene de expresar su manera de amar. Siempre dicen que las demás razas no aman como los latinos. ¿Pero que manera es esa? No es que quiera mal hablar a mi gente, pero yo quiero saber de que hablan.

Quiero Saber...

I want to know who is out there.

Drop me a notita.  Cuentame something about yourself.  Why?  Because I am bored and I want to know about other people.

People are so interesting, each individual is like a different world.  Sappy, but true.

So tell me.

Contemplating the Future

Here I go again.  You would think I would just figure something out and deal with it. Pero es muy dificil trying to figure something out that may be permanent.
I am currently in a limbo situation when it concerns my future, more specifically my career.  I have a degree I do not want to use.  I have been working jobs here and there and traveling here and there.  But certain circumstances have obligated me to start choosing a path that would be more financially smart, but would drain my spirit.  I have looked into working in corporate offices, pero no mas de pensarlo me da...it just gives me some weird rash.  Why can't there be a job that is both financially smart and would fulfill a traveling souls hunger? 
Here is a little something about me that I have never divulged.  I love to travel.  No tengo la lana for such luxuries pero I do it now and then.  I have worked jobs that allow me the freedom to do this, pero they are not well paying jobs.  I have my responsabilidades to think about before I go and venture off in another excursion, but I am just itching to get out of here. Como la hacen otros?  Where do they get those awesome jobs that pay well and travel everywhere?  Jealous!
I don't know. I have been loosing sleep just trying to figure out what I will do.  My play time is running short and the real world keeps on knocking.  There is not much more I can do to block it from barging in. 
Scared!