New Year's Resolution

Very Simple.

1. Get a job
2. Move out of the 'rents
3. Get laid

That's all.  Not asking for much.

You?

the grinch

I have become the grinch.  I am ruining Christmas for everyone at home.  I don't know how to stop it.  My father speaks to me and I answer back rudely.  I have started to insult him and I really don't care anymore.  My sister wants to hang out but she speaks to me and I just get annoyed by her.  My mother and other sibling are doing ok; I just don't know what to do.  I know the problem is me.  I had convinced my self that a single hitting thirty living at home was okay, but I just can't convince myself anymore.  I am trying to find a stable job in order to move out and really start forming my own life, but I just can't seem to land a job. I come home and lock myself in my room for up to twelve hours and I know that is not healthy.  I love to write here it is much cheaper than a shrink.  Sometime people just need to release their thoughts.  Maybe it releases the negative energy and gives way to the positive flow. 

I don't know if this shit is true, but it is better than believing it will stay like this for ever.

Hope everyone has some good holidays. 

 

 

UGH!

So, I am jobless right now, however, it is not because there is nothing to do out there.  I applied for several jobs, one of them offered me a position and I refused it.  Why? I don't know.  I have been unemployed for almost two months and I really need the money, but, I don't want to be tied down at a company that I know I wont succeed in.  I am hoping for other offers, however, those might be a bit out of my reach.

I just needed to vent.  Since, every time I turn to a friend, they have said I should have taken the job offer.

Ugh.

Soy un Arbol?

I sit here wasting away doing nothing, I still can not motivate myself to do something. I look around and see others aspiring to be someone and I still sit here just looking into a screen that will give no answers. I look and look as if to see that maybe it will be able to show me where I need to be. I feel lost as if I will never find my way. I feel as if I have no freedom, as if I am tree that has been planted and its roots have taken hold of the earth and don’t want to let go even if its leaves shake with desire of freedom. Those few instances of hope, when the wind comes and blows and blows, freedom seem so close, but nothing. The leaves look up into the sky wishing they could go with it, not knowing that there will be a day when they are free, and hoping they were still attached to the tree.

Will the same thing happen to me?

*Photo taken from this site.

Amor Latino?

¿Si hay algo lo que se llama amor latino?
¿Han escuchado la canción de Carlos Vives que se llama “Amor Latino”?

Hay maneras de amar diferentes, te quiero contar
que en mi pueblo se quiere mi gente, que no tiene igual,
y en mi pueblo latino se siente, en mi pueblo latino se crece,
una forma de amar diferente, que hoy hiere cantar.

Siempre se habla de un amor o una manera que la gente hispana/latina tiene de expresar su manera de amar. Siempre dicen que las demás razas no aman como los latinos. ¿Pero que manera es esa? No es que quiera mal hablar a mi gente, pero yo quiero saber de que hablan.